the reality

I don’t know when or how I began to feel ‘unhappy’ or even why. But really, do we always need reasons?

In addition to the unhappiness, it was odd being that way. Because while I was unhappy for awhile (okay, QUITE awhile), I chose not to let even some of the closest people see it, because we’re not ‘supposed’ to be unhappy, like happiness is just there, so what was wrong with me?! That was the odd part. I didn’t want people to ask me, “What’s wrong?” Because there were only two answers to that. Some days it was, “Nothing”, - I’m just unhappy, DON’T YOU GET IT?! - and on others, “Everything!” - Like the way the traffic moves, or the way the sun shines or how your hair just won’t fall into place and EVERYTHING IS JUST NOT RIGHT!

Odd.

I remember waking up and thinking, Today, I’m going to be happy! I am going to see rainbows and unicorns in everything! Who was I kidding, I wanted to be happy, not high.

Anyway, when I finally found the time to sit my arse down and ask myself, What is wrong with you?! I had no answer. Odd. That was when I began to search for happiness. This was no ‘pursuit of happyness’ sorta thing, rather it was just me, shifting my life about, leaving people and places as I wished, just because. And no, that didn’t cure it. Running away doesn’t solve anything.

Long story short, and in case you’re wondering, I have no answer to why I was unhappy for that period of time. Work, stress, people, relationships, who knows, who cares.

I only know why I’m happier today. And the answer to that is because, ‘You can’t be unhappy when you’re a verb’ – Oliver Miller. 

Do something, love something, be something. That was my cure.

Writing helps me put things into perspective, and that is why I do it, and because I’m a better/ happier person when I’m writing. It’s like living for me. Writing to me, is living, simply because I think there’s nothing better than a couple of good lines to help us get by, except coffee, of course.

-7minGf 

Yeah ! why do we need a reason to be unhappy ? ain't sound right  ? LOL